It happens to all of us. If we are still enough, we’ll hear it. The call to do something absolutely insane, for which we are seemingly unfit and entirely unqualified, will come. It will leave us breathless, exhilarated, feeling more alive than ever before and perhaps scanning our resources and wondering, HOW?
It’s possible that we’ll look at our own smallness in comparison to the calling’s vastness and begin to panic. We may even become paralyzed with self doubts and fears of all that could go wrong. But I believe that it is right here, where focus must be shifted, eyes must be lifted and a foot must come out of the boat. God didn’t call us based on our resources, but on his. He knew who we were and what we could bring to the table when he called us, and he called us anyway.
I love what Stasi Eldredge says about this in her book, “Becoming Myself” – speaking of Mary, the mother of Jesus, being chosen to carry the savior of the world she says- “ She knew better than anyone else her weaknesses. And God chose her. He chose her to bring the Savior of the world to our world just as God has chosen us to bring the Savior of the world to our world.” Knowing my weaknesses and resources, he chose me anyway. He picked me on purpose, for such a time as this.
I am reminded of the story of Abraham and Isaac in Genesis chapter 22. God tells Abraham to offer off his son, Isaac to him as a sacrifice. We hear no bargaining, complaining or whining, just immediate obedience. Abraham complies the very next morning. When Isaac inquires about the whereabouts of the sacrifice, Abraham’s reply gets me. He says, “God himself will supply a sacrifice” In other words, my job is obedience, God’s job is resources. As I lay my dreams on the alter and I offer them back up to the one who has planted them in my heart, I realize that this is what it all comes down to. Obedience is my job; resources are God’s job. I just bring my willing heart, and the rest is up to him.
As I continue to lean into Jesus, to cooperate with the work of the Holy Spirit in my life, I am learning to redefine success. It looks like this for me: Was I obedient? Did I grow closer to Jesus? Then I was successful.
So today, I am reminded, I am challenged, I am encouraged to bring my willing heart and leave the rest up to Jesus. Regardless of outcome, if in the end I was obedient and I grew closer to Jesus, then it was a success, worthy of celebration.
What boat are you stepping out of today? What wild calling are you pursuing? Whatever it is, don’t worry about the resources. Just bring your willing heart.